Hi all, sorry for the lack of posts lately, but I’m pretty convinced that I shouldn’t try to write if I have nothing to say. I’ve seen plenty of blogs that seem to just keep spewing out garbage because they’ll lose their precious hit-counts if they don’t keep updating, but I’m not trying to make any money here.
The reason, however, that I haven’t had much to say is that I haven’t been doing much. Lately it’s been a struggle to stay focused. Now, those who know me may laugh at this, since I recognize that I have a strong tendency to bounce from topic to topic, but those bounces are usually on the scale of several months. Lately, I seem to be mostly unable to work on any project for more than a few minutes before I get side-tracked. The main symptom is that I seem to get a compulsion to seek newly updated information; I start browsing through all sorts of blogs, tweets, facebook posts, etc, looking for something new, and I get bored very easily and move on.
This has been pretty frustrating for me since I usually have quite an ability to sit down and get absorbed in something interesting like looking up a hundred new words in a language or something. What I realized lately is that this lack of attention is based on stress in my life. I hadn’t really realized before that there was a strong link between stress and attention-span.
Today, I happened to be watching my favourite news program, Democracy Now, and Amy Goodman (the host) was interviewing a guy from my home town (Vancouver, Canada) about drug addiction and harm reduction. In the interview, Dr. Gabor Maté discussed in detail about the effects of stress on infants, and how this can lead to things such as susceptibility to drug addiction, and to … Attention Deficit Disorder!
Now that I’ve made more of a connection between the current stress in my life, and these symptoms of reduced attention span and motivation, I’ll hopefully be able to focus more on relaxing and removing the stressful elements of my situation, rather than just trying to force myself to pay attention (which has probably just increased my stress, ironically).
I’ll probably come back with more commentary on this topic after I’ve read Dr. Maté’s book on the subject, but for now I’m just going to take it easy and maybe investigate some meditation techniques or something. Perhaps I should retreat back to German too, since I’ve noticed that it just feels soooo easy to read and listen to German, compared with the Swedish I’ve been working on. I know it’s just a matter of time until my Swedish comprehension improves, but it’s so nice to get that feeling of accomplishment from understanding German (although I still have lots of work to do there too).
Please leave me a note if you’ve experienced distraction from your studies, and how you deal with it 🙂